Its that simple

Today i kinda did some research into my topic for OBU, its the ALMIGHTY TOPIC 6 EMPLOYEE MOTIVATION FACTORS. Thank God i got my panda mama here to supple me with her mgt books and of cuz the very much appreciated future help =) .. Oh yeah , today i got my new TOY !!!!!!! ITS MY NEW PRINTER which can scan, photocopy and print..serioues i was so amaze at it that it could SCAN but EVEN MROE AMAZE THAT it could actually PHOTOSTATE .... SO i spend dont knwo how long experimenting it, i even tried and DID fix my own printer tho kinda become a joke for my bro.

BRO: ur USB cable havnt pluck la

ME: No need de , USB is for MAC only (looking at instruction paper)

BRO: ya meh. ( and he happily sits on my bed dont know do wat)

Few minutes later...

ME: eh need USB cable de ler...... need to pluck it to the printer and computer ler..how hmm

MUM: u got 1 good helper there u dowan ask (referring to my bro)

ME: wait i luan lai and see...

BRO: later pluck wrong and boom then i laugh...

ME: cincai la (ignoring silly comment )

MUM: u got 1 good helper there u dowan ask...

ME: ok i did it and it work hahahha

BRO: i purposely dowan go back and see how u want to print without ur usb cable haha.. someone say can print without USB de wor ..

ME: >.>

and well i was amaze with its photostating capability that i kept photostating and kinda tot it was fun but those copies was much needed as well (at least to me ) .. tho many was waste during experiment time , i either overlap the printing, or alignment went out or print terbalik on the other side or forget to cover it properly wasting all my black ink..so me being so WONDERFUL manage to finish 1 black ink catridge within hours HAHAHHAHAHA..i m still AMAZE AT IT , but no mreo ink let me play liow ..then when i was photostating half way, my accountant trait kinda kick in (finally...) , i started to wonder whetehr it is cheaper to photostate outside or at home... then i found myself dumbfounded, DUH of cuz PHOTOSTATE OUTSIDE CHEAPER LA .... but oh well when i kinda realise it , it was too late and i doubt i can control my curiousity hahha...

so yeah i spend most of my day playing my new TOY eventhough i was so desperate for sleep , as i said my bad habit to try to avoid sleeping as it is a waste of time KAKAKAKA... today i would say i need to drag myself up to church, i was so so so super tired and my eyes can barely open well yestrday's christian event at bukit jalir ended pretty late ( i will GO TO IT LATER) and i kinda stretch my limit hehe to watch that lam fung drama and aso my VAMPRIE ACADEMY..

OKOK THIS IS ABOUT VAMPRIE ACADEMY BOOK 5 WHICH I PROUDLY ANNOUCNE I HAVE FINISH READING IT TODAY, its NICE and make sense and yeah MY DIMITRI IS BACK hahaha , tho i kinda pity ADRIAN, i pretty much think Adrian would be my type physically n some of its attitude (minus the bad vices he had and aso his used to be playboy style ) . But oh WELL, i prefer DIMITRI hehe, and i have lots of reasons for liking him partly becoz he is more mature and they are just perfect match la tho i like ADRIAN's humuor hahah .. I PRAY PRAY PRAY the last book DIMITRI end up with Rose , they had been thru like so much and yeah i hope dimitri is not the murderer tho 1% of me may think he is , 1% at Adrian kinda tot so, but 30% would be Ambrose i guess. 40% Victor and bro and gang (which i think someone among her fren is Victor's fren, likely to be Ambrose tho or perhaps Anthony or Daniella), Anthony 10%, Daniella 18% .. Whatever it is the book will be out on 7th December keke , i will use every single way to get that book perhaps b4 31st dec keke...

And well today met Grace's bro aka James and was kidna funny he was like '' u grow up liow'' i was like ''i was small last time meh '' , well now that i recall mayb i was younger but pretty sure height wise i didnt grew any taller , keke well it i looked taller, i very much appreciated that and gratefully i will receive that compliment i guess..

Talkign abt church , they were talking abt Father's day, and the speaker was talking abt how some ppl still dont know the books in the bible , u know Mark, Luke, John etc etc , yeah i was like ok i m found Guilty and i m not gona rebuke it .. Haiz each time i sure guilty over somehting haiz

So ok now its abt the church event (Night Crusade) at Bukit Jalir , ok 1st I am truely thankful but i wouldnt say i m HAPPY thoughout it . 1st, there are very helpful ppl there willing to fetch us there and bring us back , i m very DLIGHTED and TOUCHED at theri commitment, esp if i m not mistaken shud be Andy who yeah i think he was commited to fetch 2 rounds of ppl back home.. So this is the happy part, well now this is the not so happy part, i dont know if Chang Chang realise or not but i was quite pissed off i guess .. Coz they told me at 1st 6.15pm , so i was having my OBU meeting at 4pm, manatau half way they say 5.15pm then after that became 5pm, i was like how u expect me to rush there, then is aw a text msg says 5.30pm.. so its kidna confusing and i was not very happy coz i gota rush things at LAST MINUTE and yeah i ended my 1st meeting prematurely coz i think she would have more to say to me, end up it kinda rushed my dad and rushed my mentor, and great when i was there I and Jamie realise we didnt eat and have drinks with us .... so thats part 1 , and erm part 2 was the worshipleading which i wouldnt say i was pissed, juz abit not used to it coz 90% of it is in chinese and my poor 2 frens la cant really read them , even i can read them , i was liek mentally translating it back to english to appreciate the lyrics despite they say its bilingual , felt abit cheated but oh well it was my fault who didnt have the general knowledge i guess , well anyway worship songs are for God not for me, so no qualms abt it . But well the people are very kind to us , gave me and Stef free glow in dark stick , but i wasnt really into jumping as i said i need to translate it to english to appreciate it, i of cuz wouldnt be there jumping perhaps dont feel comfortable at chinese song (not used to it lol , abit culture (thats the way we do things round here) change there. n 3rdly perhaps was the ending part lol , me n jamie and 2 other person was waiting for ppl to fetch us home but no one told us who or when they are coming, so we just waited and at the meanwhile, the moon looksliek the most interesting thing to look at , recalling my memories when iw as thrown in the middle of a jungle path and tho i can see ppl near me (mayb 20 or mreo steps away where int he dark u can see shadows thats all) , the moon seems to be the interesting thing to me besides praying lol .. but yeah at the end the gal told me what they are doin and so its justified . And During the sermon, it reminds me of Easter lol, the way 1 speak englsih and the other in chinese and i understand both which makes me kinda bored but i tried to concentrate even harder than in any of my ACCA classes ... And so when they ask ppl to come out , I honestly was kinda in my own mind the whole time, as he talk , i was reconciling what he said and i have been thru. Tho he say abt healing to come forward, i came forward mroe for thanking God for all the miracles and aid he had blessed me . Yes i was bullied and laughed at before, Yes i was even dumped by my bf , yes i was CHeated before(including the most recent one i just found out and if u ask me i thank God that i am no longer in that relationship coz i am, i would be on a rampage , n even i m not, that day i was still unhappy abt it, ops unhappy is not the right word, is ANGRY but i told myself what would u expect from someone who have lied to others for me and i clearly recall how i thought that this person would have lied to me when i heard him lying to some 3rd party, but i THANK GOD that he had healed me before that day , i came forward on thanking him coz without him, mayb that day only i would have been healed which means prolonging my suffering that much longer and i was VERY VERY HAPPY i wasnt in any of that situation =) yeah so throughout the process, my brain was like recalling stuff and applying wat he said, and at the end i came to a conclusion which is THANK GOD. Regarding start a new life part, i find it relevant as ACCA isnt exactly the course that allow u to have much life without ur books , so yeah i want to see have more life n of cuz must pass all the exams (esp finals) in just 1 attempt =P ..

Thank God by the end of the day, i was not filled with anger and yeah pretty much the normal me + abit more of the tired me.

and congrats to Lizard ( since he say dont call him lizard, i now call u Hairy or Harry la) and Check who gona opened their new RO tomorrow . ALL the best and May your server LAST LoNG LONG and EARN U money la lol . I personally am looking forward to it =)

And this is the Korean drama that is a serious drama, i feel not bad la tho abit slow and the guy actors not say superb handsome but passed my min threshold , its called Cinderella's Sister and one of it OST i like which is called Minor Waltz (not sure if this is the proper name or not la , i m not some musician and in fact i m not good at it aka yet to be improved) .

Here is the link : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6eyAG_avTIA&feature=related

Thats all for tonight , already very tired , all the tiredness that have been carried forward till now is taking its toll on me .. so Night guys and Adios Amigo.

Time

So now i have all the time in the world to relax, but i just get frustrated more and more ... i feel i m happier before exam.... suddenly u give me so much time i want to do evrything but non of it satisfies me , at least non of it is keeping me interested... mayb partly i m not feeling well again .. since ACCA, i feel i getting more and more tofu.. and tofu i really meant it given my conditions, not much medicine can cure me anyway ... i wonder if there is a countdown of our life, will I use my time mroe efficiently ... fed up sleeping, fed up of drama and anime, fed up of so many things ... quite swt rite , ba mayb now not well so mental aso not well.... and now its 3.16am lol . tried lying on the bed , its so comfy that i want to sleep, but somehow i feel obliged to stay up as if i got something undone, n if u ask me wat , i dont know..mayb thats my way of appreciating and utilising evry single minute i have for holiday ..

And so so like i said , my diet plan starts, i did jog, less than 15 min , i think mayb at most 5-6 min saja, then i kemek liow .... Stamina so teruk now, from bad to worst kaka , but well i think i must do something else to lose weight, how i wish i have a private park for me to jog where no indonesian worker keep staring at u like u are some ALIEN from MARS, n if they ever whistle or kacau me, i will BREAK THEM ALL NOW,LET THEM FROM DUST TO DUST.. and well i don liek to jog in the park coz ppl play football and i don like it becoz its weir dppl lookign at u jog and well ic ant plugin an earphone coz 1st my earphone 1 side the rubber lost liow, 2ndly safety purpose .. AND TATS WHY i want a private PARK...... mayb i can try wakign up early in the morning n jog ... AND ITS HOT today , so so so hot ...

Oh well today i did housework clean up my doggy's mess , all the poo and newspapers she destroy..... n i wonder i can spend around 1 hr gua to clean thsoe up ... n i guess i murdered almoz the whole clan of the ants at my car porch ..too bad la u let me found out ur base and i definitely go easy on them for stealing my dog's food, for invading my space and not knowing their limits . Anyway they are dead, i gave them lots of insecticide , speed up their death reduce their suffering, see i m so kind haha ..risking my health for their ease of death kakakaka ..sorry for the ozon tho .

And yeah today i finally called ms Sidney (dont know if spell her name correctly) , i got kinda worried be4 callign thinking whether i will disrupt her class or her meals and get her pissed off , then i prayed n called , hoping she is not someone as Strict as Ms Joyce lol , n luckily she doesnt sound so ... WELL Happy OBU-ing K.E.L.L.Y ..

Guess i need more sleep , or else i will go crazy again (tho i m usually crazy during midnights )and i dont want to be a pessimist and I WILL NOT.

suddenly i just thought of this question, what will i do if i can turn back the time ?

Answer: I dont wish to TURN it, People who keep looking back will never move forward . By FAITH I stand, by COURAGE I walk, by TRUST i follow.

Finally but not the Finale

So today i finally finish all of my exam but its not the finale yet .... got OBU coming up and I REALLY REALLY REALLY pray that i will this sem's paper all in just 1 attempt , then i can just focus on next sem's papers.... If u ask me ler, today's paper i feel its weird, different from usual and uncertain ... And this paper is by far i quite worry about it , so this is how i gain my confidence .. The night before i will start singing worship song and yeah thats what happen to my voice... Day time study (i need to read out LOUD) then night time keep singing songs (not only christian songs la) ...so my voice still so sexy....

This is what happen the day before my p3 paper , i sing christian song half way , i saw my holy bible, its like STARING AT ME, since i m guilty of neglecting it , i took it and read iut, as usual me always liek to read whichever chapter that i 1st flip, and that chapter i dont remember wat chapter but i remembered it was Isaiah something about God warning about Babylon with him saying will bring it down and talking about how it sin and all, so i already very worry b4 exam jor ma surmroe read dao that chapter i was like die la die la, its that a hint meh , but i read it carefully i didnt commit those BIG de sin in reality la ... So i put the bible back, but i was thinking probably one more chance la , so i flip the bible again and this tiem i remembered what my dad told me about the pastor told him that beginner good to read Mark and Luke, so i read Luke 18 the parable if Widow and the Judge , and it was from there i learn about WE SHUD ALWAYS PRAY and NEVER BECOME DISCOURAGED... So from there it inspired me, my spirits all up again and of course i happily sang my christian song and say a prayer and sleep ...

So yeah i was planning to have a cruise trip with my frens but i found out one thing ..The info very messy for that cruise trip, hmm mayb time to ask my panda(Mum) to help ... Talking about names, i realise i like to create nicknames for people using animal.. So for Divine i call him Bunny , Tkein i call him Hamster, Harry i call him Lizard , mum i call Panda ... i dono why i have such habit but well as long the one kena call don mind then its ok lor, mind ASO NO USE /gg...

By the way i like to refer myself as Polar Bear, so i treat all of u even myself equally okay.. Sun Bear not bad but i like white better haha (i m randoming now...its 3.45am now lol )

Today no energy to intro song liow la, 2molo still have to clean my dog de mess, do housework , call up my mentor , jog and OF CUZ OPEN CEREMONY FOR MY VAMPIRE ACADEMY BOOK 5 HAHAHAH...still so happy abt it ... so tied in with Dmitri and Rosabelle(was it rosabelle i not too sure so long no read le ) ...

By the way , today after exam i watch Movie with chang chang (aka stef) , A team was nice tho some part for so fast for my eyes to capture and some of the scenes i was actually trying to make sense out of it using physics, like how the tank fall from sky and the shooting work etc .. Though i was already drained after the exam , having headaches and all and i REALLY PRAY its not my POWER INCREASE again lor ....... PLS HAVE MERCY ON MY EYES though its already being ABUSED ... And yeah I and stef went to ZANMAI to have our dinner , kinda quick dinner, we ate sushi and i ate sushi + sashimi .. N this is wat happen:

ME: i want to eat sushi and sashimi

CHang Chang: ok ..

ME: I think now i really know how to eat SUSHI liow ...should reward myself with better food

CHang: erm..SASHIMI?

ME: Sushi..

CHANG: Sashimi?

ME: Oh yeah, sashimi ...its called sashimi (brain malfunction liow cant differentiate sushi n sashimi )

Before that, we was counting how many days of holiday we have. This is how the conversation went on :

ME: so our holidays is till 5th of july, so how many days ar?

Chang:hmmm (counting)

ME: so its from 17th June to 5th of July ..hmm...let me see... (counting)

after 7-8 sec...

ME: forget it , dont know how to count liow......

CHANG: its 19 days ..wait hmm.. actually 18 days

ME: oh... i cant count liow ,brain dead le ...

Change: haha

So, me being ACCA cant even count days, this is the impact of p3 exams.... Killed my brain cells and my IQ supposingly to be 1 yr or 3 yrs ahead of my actual age according to my mum fren who gave me an IQ test when i was young. But they say sleep late, IQ will decrease, so i wonder how much has it deteriorated since then...... Hopefully its not behind my age now... HAVE MERCY ON MY BRAIN CELLS !!!!!!!!

AND AND THIS THURS, FRI, SAT 7.30pm got a Christian EVENT, its called God's Power Night Crusade , non christian are always welcomed at Bukit Jalir Outdoor CarPark A ... I personally never went to a stadium for christian event , well would be looking forward to it , time to give thanks for HIS support all this while hehe and well guess how i get to know about this event ? ... Its FROM EDGAR!! Kinda shock me when he told me abt it, and going aroudn foyer to get ppl to join eventhough he is non christian yet, very shock and touched and happy tho keke ... Me christian aso didnt do this kind of job , yet he so enthusiastic ..kinda proud of him lol ... SOSO i just got to know Emily and her sis boutique got give soem discoutn for whoever who go for thios event... AND i suddenly thought of the EDgar... and i wonder why it clicks n links HAHAHAH ... its not verified its just be random linking and reasoning the connections which maybnon existent LOL ...

SPoiler~

so so ...i think it was day before yesterday i was watching HUAN ZHU GE GE 3.... when i watch until the romantic part, wah when i so ''lam'' that time ... i feel my toe got some feel liek someone touching....so i ''lam lam dei'' so see , MANATAU LET ME SEE THIS CRICKET LEG TOUCH MY TOE!!!!!!!! SO CHA DAO LOR......... I WAS lam lam dei but kinda freaking out inside..... when i was thinking how to trap it and ask my dad to feed my birdie 2molo...then i lost it .... AND today i saw a smaller one ... I PRAY THAT THERE IS NO MORE INSECTS IN MY ROOM, nor it is planning to have their great family plan in my room... i understand there is aircond and food and yeah its a very ncie place to live in , but dont they get it WRONG!!! ITS MY ROOM!!!!! NOT UR FAMILY BASE!!!!!

And yeah i lately less play RO le... BUT i will always open reflex RO patch to listen to their song...very nice so ochestraic .... and i end up imaginating things again about combat and war.... Talking abt RO, lizard zai is opening his new RO with his friends (of cuz include my dear ahahah) .... really looking forward about it, i don tknow what happen to KYo RO and other RO seriously doesnt interest me .... sad lor ... But well well , for whoever reading this and U KNOW WHO U ARE, DONT U DARE NAME IT RINOA RO ...or else i chop u 18 pieces ...

Lately i cant sleep well at night, dont knwo why cant sleep at night , if not wake up half way if not have dream and wake up..... I dreamt about my bro doin something stupid and i cant really recall what it was that i was so angry and hated him so much that i woke up i felt so much hate... i was like what la...Dream saja..... kacau my sleep ..... I guess he must be doing somethign that piss me that my brain have to generate such dream .... anyway pray for me to have a good night rest and pray for me this auntie here to get well soon ba ..Having knee and shoulder pain lol like auntie liwo... not even hit 20 oledi liddat i wonder how la my next 20 years.... well wtv la life goes on, worry so much aso have to live on , let God handle it keke.. i forgot which verse it is and i dont recall the real actualy thing , but its something like ''it own wo Dont worry abt tomorrow for its today has worries '' I forgot le its sumthing liddat plus i dont know this is i add on or its in the bible ''For God will take care of the worries of tomorrow and just have to relax'' pai seh lor i very slack in bible and i m GUILTY la haiz ... And lately dont know i m growing odl ro wat, is tart to worry for alot of things, liek whetehr i have enuff food to eat for breakfast and lunch ...counting how long my KOKOCRUNCH and fresh milk can last me, whether enough comfy baju to wear while studying, whether enough entertainment after studying ... all this thing esp food never worries me de lor... last time i can create them by cooking or just live with wtv i have...now haiz wat aso have to think.... i hope it worsened until i need to count whether i have enough air to breath anot.....

WELL WELL ANIME FREAKS, i intro u KAICHOU WA MAID SAMA.SUPER gao xiao (aka funny) , i watch that anime i sure laugh and thats good... I think laughter can help me distress LOL thats explain why i m hyper and crazy at night kakakakakakak.....

So This Is ME

soso i realsie i get very hyper at night ...its like i go crazy midnight ...mayb exam stress or wat dono la ..its good to let loose abit geh... like the getah after kena stress too much must let loose abit , only can stretch more and wont break...

Oh yeah , yesterday i marry Mr.Check again..manatau that sei Pengasus RO cant support ppl wedding ....marry nia not even 10 sec... evryone DC out and took me so long to enter the server...i m like MARRY ASO GOT WRONG AR..... but well this incident becoem a very nice plot for my ro story kakaka... its like some sort of myth where these 2 person are not destined together, once together the sky will crumble and the world will end .... I know la random imagination but its not a bad plot kaka .... Kinda bored with RO liow le , cant change my BM keys..so hard to hunt custom and very very bored already ....

And yeah lately i gues si put on weight le ..keep eat n sit ... SIT to STUDY and SIT to WATCH DRAMA, PLAY RO, WATCH ANIME... and i think mayb because of this , i think my eyes GG le ... i took out my specs yesterday i think, i try to see withotu specs, n its so much blurer than before .. haiz GOD Bless and Heal my eyes...focus too much eye aso pain ...

AND THIS IS MY NEW FAVOURITE DRAMA ..

Its called Summer Desire-

the link for it is --http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tjZLbG6ZCsk

>http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tjZLbG6ZCsk

And this is my new favourite song , its the ending theme for that drama hehe

its called : 鑽石

and this is the link :http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oPJuNCkR8QM

This song very got character keke, chinese will say got yun wei , hen you wei dao =)

如果我哭著請求
如果我跪地哀求
你呢 能不能為我而留
我知道你愛她
就像鑽石般愛她
就算她不愛你
你還是傻傻愛著她
人人都愛她
人人都愛她
她是完美墔璨鑽石
她高貴 她美麗
我是卑微的隨風而走的砂
我低賤漂泊
她是完美墔璨鑽石
她純潔她無瑕
我是卑微的隨風而走的砂
我世故我複雜
她是無價的鑽石阿
我是不值錢的砂
她是鑽石我是砂

this song keep me hypoer for quite awhile and this drama manage to keep me glued to the screen for 1 hr + until it finish...this is how good it is...usually i will multitask while watching drama, i will mayb play RO or do some web search or other stuff and listen to the drama playing but this one just keep stuck there... and the fact that i dont fastforward means its interesting enough ...most of the drasma i will fastforward .... This drama choose the right actor and actress to act as main chacs, give people very dangerous feeling... I usually go after drama where the main characters have more personality..something different ...well THATS ME

and i kinda like this drama keke,its called 少年杨家将

show u the link : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0CRUN8FZ8ps&feature=related

THATS THE SPIRIT OF GALS !!!

DA DA DA! I m BACK ~

so these few days just keep studying but yesterday was nice, i manage to bug my mum out to watch movie with me just the problem is she wants to watch Happy Go Lucky aka the singaporean show but i want to watch Prince Of Persia ... So i called my kaki, but all either busy or booked liow ...eeeee very suey ...so i was praying to God saying: '' If U want me to watch movie, i will use evry single cell of my brain to get me to the cinema (yes i m very reckless =) ) .. So if i should go enjoy myself with a nice movie , Pls let one of my kaki teman me watch hehe'' ...so the result was NO KAKI IS FREE... so when i kinda give up and get back to studying , i dont know why i thought i was studying very fast but the time flies as well... then it seems my mum FREN FFK her , so she wants to movie as well now.. so i guess its God helping me gua ...hehe so i went pyramid with her ... unfortunately her show tak ada thattime, so we decided to watch soem canto ku wak zai show , n while there is 2 hrs 10 min free time , i quickly told my mum i will watch PRINCE OF PERSIA in btw that time ..and see how th etiming just fit so well ...i was just in time after i get the ticket (despite the crazy qeue) and get myself popcorn and mineral water for lunch .. yeah its 4.40pm and thats my lunch..during study time, my lunch is around there keke... i was so huingry that i always finish the whole tub of regual rpopcorn and that night itself my mum kinda do this cruel thing to me .

MUM: wheres da korean drama 2nd DVD ?

ME: there lor (side of my study table )

MUM:oh ok... (as she was abt to walk out she suddenly stop and say>>>>>>) PERUT..

ME: What perut...

MUM: perut besar...

ME: WHAT LA.....(just realsie she was staring abt my spare tayar...)

MUM: PERUT...PERUT BESAR......

ME: enough la... i must eat to study la ....

MUM: PERUT ...(and she start laughing and walk away )

see and thats how my night have been and lately iw as quite crazy over this drama call 美人心计

its a very nice china de drama got hong kong actor and actress and soem taiwanese actress and some china actor gua .. VERY NICE about palace life and all the complexities and u slap me and i kill u stuff ... After weatching that drama, i feel ancient China punya those palace gals are VERY VERY BRILLIANT PEOPLE... evrythign aso know ... me 1 ACCA aso can take my life liow ....

Just finish the ending to day, kidna cried when the King died ... super sad lor..near the ending evryone start to die, why cant they just stop when evrythign is nice but they have to show they grow old and die of sickness... so sadist... but well i guess thats life, we always like to see thigns that are nice but wel we aged , we go thru bad thigns and some not so lucky, kiao half way thats all ... Quite meaningful la that drama i feel... U can choose not want the throne, but will u choose poverty? does that eman u wont choose money? sometimes we ppl are not so greedy, but that doesnt mean we are not greedy.. haiz just thought about this while watching that drama today ..

and i super like the Opening song for that drama i just mention.

This is the link for that drama info : http://wiki.d-addicts.com/Mei_Ren_Xin_Ji

the song that i like : Hua Luo (落花) by Ruby Lin

花开的时候最珍贵 花落了就枯萎
错过了花期花怪谁 花需要人安慰

一生要哭多少回 才能不流泪
一生要流多少泪 才能不心碎
我眼角眉梢的憔悴 没有人看得会
当初的誓言太完美 像落花满天飞
冷冷的夜里北风吹 找不到人安慰
当初的誓言太完美 让相思化成灰

一生要干多少杯 才能不喝醉
一生要醉多少回 才能不怕黑
我眼角眉梢的憔悴 没有人看得会
当初的誓言太完美 像落花满天飞
冷冷的夜里北风吹 找不到人安慰
当初的誓言太完美 让相思化成灰
冷冷的夜里北风吹 找不到人安慰
当初的誓言太完美 让相思化成灰
花开的时候最珍贵 花落了就枯萎
错过了花期花怪谁 花需要人安慰

This song is so nice that can really do the ancient china dancing with it =P Each time i ehar it i would dance kakaka ..(duh door locked la...)

By the way , 1 of my cookadiels have joined Holy and my Heavanly Father liow , there goes my Hope gal.... Well i guess that was better for it , at least she is freed =)

AND AND the new TVB DRAMA the police drama by lam fung act as a physics researcher or stuff liddat not bad haha ..

I Miss one day again

Okok writing blog is like an obligation now.... since i miss writing it on yesterday, today's one should be longer? hehe thansk guys for reading my essays LOL, sorry la i lazy take pic and my phone not that good for taking pictures anyway, and there is nothing to take aso la ..what you wan to see my lovely face meh ... So yesterday i just found out that i got one buddy here who likes to write essays for blog .... and that is Mr Lizzard .. sorry yeah not used to call ur name , i think Lizzard sound better and not that u dont call me by nicks... Well well after reading steg chang chang blog , I guess she really enjoyed her day but well ACCA is always there to kill the joy >.> ... Anyway very nice friends you have there =P, consider open a fan club =P ? well well , I cant complaint that i dont have frens making sign boards for me, well the VERY 1stthing is I DONT LIKE TO STAND ON STAGE.... The only stage that i m less freak out is the Church's stage... AND that doesnt mean i m not scared but i Guess the only difference is that my audience in church is God and not others , thats why less tense gua >.>

So these 2 days i have been studying lor ... counting on the time spent to cover my targets and all , my STUDY MOTO IS TO BE EFFICIENT and EFFECTIVE , not economical ... this bukan value for money ok =P So i Thank God for the rain that makes the weather so much better and cooler.. today's weather wasnt that bad either and thank God for less mosquito attacks... well i already scarred quite badly ..sometiems i wish mosquitoes and snakes extinct... but i dowanna get hunt down by deep ecologist who DEEPLY belive that human and living beings are EQUAL .. yea yea i m applying p1 knowledge ahhaha .. so what else to talk about studying la, just stare at the book, use ur brains and dont forget to breath in oxygen but well i kinda day dream abit here and there ..what u expect la right 7hrs + study session...

About Angel (my golden retriever) , her fur keep dropping and I dont knwo why, now her body 1 patch no fur, head 1 patch no fur and tail aso..the patches on the head and tail are quite small .. N i only realsie it today after having a short studying session with her , thought of changing environment to study end up feeding mosquitoes and she is pretty much distraction there.. keep using her paw to kacau me when i m studying, if not push me... at the end she give up and sulk down there... i have to admit that she is the most BRAINY DOG i have , very very very very SMART but very very very very playful , and playful means she can be a destroyer... trim my neighbours bamboo who happen to grow over the fence, trim my palm trees, i think 5-6 perish in her name already, trim oledi nvm, go dig out the root, dont even let ppl have zuriat, let them zhue zhi zhue sun... and yeah thats my little monster called ANGEL...

Next , today is pend sometiems searching for a good anime to watch but well quite sad lor... all the anime that have good graphic as in got romance genre with good looking guys (what u expect i m still a little gal =P) is either eichi which i dont knwo why guys love watching this genre, OR YAOI means GUY LOU... I VREALLY REALLY PRAY people can make mroe ncie anime with good drawings WITH GOOD story line WITH CLEAN content , that snot asking alot isnt it.. Skip beat is nice, Kaichou wa maid sama is ok too , ouran highschool is funny, S.A class is good and wallflower is not bad as well, all this are successful ANIME la.. CLEAN CONTENT and tho not all are very good drawings, its ACCEPTABLE compare to some produced in 1988 or so.. Samurai X is nice too . Anyone who knows any anime similar to thos ei mention pls TELL ME keke ...

Oh yeah one of the nice japanese song i like is Gloria by Kalafina : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O_B0mvoUDHU

itoshisa wa sugu chikaku ni
hontou wa ita no deshita
tsumetai ryoute de
anata no hoho o tsutsumi
nagai tabi o oeta you na
shizuka na yasuragi no naka
hitori o itande
sukoshi dake nakimashita

gloria
subete yo wa koto mo naku
gogo no hizashi akaruku
shiawase no uta hibiki
hibari no oka wa hikaru
anata to tomo ni yukou
kono sakamichi o yukou
musekaeru hodo kaoru
wakakusa o funde

kudamono no katachi o shita
maarui gakki no you ni
anata ga kanaderu kanashimi to yorokobi ga
watashi o arai yusaburi
itami to nagusame ga ima
anata o aiseru
kokoro o tsukurimashita

gloria
nanika yasashii mono ga
tashika ni koko ni atte
shiawase no utautau
sono hakanasa o yukou
ai to kibou no tame ni
namida to nie no tame ni
mabushii yoru to hiru no
hajimari o funde

English Translation:

Soon I will be by my beloved
Who really was here,
With two cold hands
Enveloping his face.
The long journey came to an end so,
In the middle of quiet tranquility,
I grieved alone
And cried just a little.

Gloria
The whole world has nothing.
The afternoon sunlight grows bright,
A song of happiness echoes,
And shines on the hill of the skylark.
Lets go together,
Along this road,
Choking on the smell and
Stepping on the green grass.

Like a round instrument
Shaped like a fruit
You played sorrow
and joy,
That washed me and shook me
of my pain and comforts so now
I can love you.
You made my heart.

Gloria
Something wonderful
Is surely here.
I sing a song of happiness.
Lets go to ephemerality.
For love and hope,
For tears and sacrifices,
Lets experience the beginning
Of radiant nïghts and noons.

Warete

so wat does WARETE means? It means SMILE, i run out of header la i dont know what to put and this word kina pop up kaka..pai seh i din post yesterday haahha..so today i try to cover 2 days stuff ba ...

to my RO frens who love my charming presence, i cant on la..wait next day i DL the patch i think my RO got problem, if i DL it, lets pray it works coz i m not GONA REFORMAT my com again, so it doesnt work, i will quit RO le ... Probably hor JUST probably I should move on to next stop le ba =P ..but by saying this i m serious though, should spend a good real time to think of my future, time for me to move on to another PHASE of life , time to be more mature , time to stop behaving like some siao auntie running around in PVP and TOWNS.. so LETS PRAY I could PLAY BACK RO well if u wish to see me there, i m fine with either ways .

So, this anime i watch call Hanasakeru Seishounen was a quite nice anime, its not meant to be a comedy, very much about political plotting and very light romance... I havnt finish watching it but i was so EAGER to know the ending that i went to google the ending while i have the last episode DVD with me.. AND YEAH IT IS DISSAPOINTING lor, the guy iw ish she end up with didnt end up together, end upw ith soem other guy (not that i hate him, i like him too, typical type of guy who always silently support her from the side line, very capable guy bla bla ) so now i m trying to program my mind to accept him as the guy she gona end up with..DONT ASK ME WHY I M SOOBSESS with this anime la, its just when things doesnt go my way, I NEED TO BE FLEXIBLE for me to ENJOY the ANIME lor, if not i tell u i will ratehr dont watch at all kaka, another hint that as we grow, things really start to get out of hand, since long time i realiseed crying wont get me the things i want , then i started to plan to get the things i want. okay okay i m drifting away again but just a side note, life is not about WHETHER YOU CAN ACHIEVE IT OR NOT, its HOW do you plan to achieve it. So for those sitting for this coming ACCA finals, dont spend ur time worrying and thinking whether u can do it or not, just use those time to MAXIMISE UR INPUT =)

AND YEAH YEAH yesterday Deloitte came to college and have a speech and presentation thingy , the managing partner Mr Tan and Najib son sounds like a fun person .. Seriously, I believe alot of us was speculating how NAJIB son look like, and 1 conclusion nia i will say, THEY DONT LOOK ALIKE, I and my frens and others was kidna looking out n spotting ..don get me wrong, i dont have any FEELINGS FOR UNCLE TYPE =) my benchmark is always FAIR , haha those white white one i like, but not guai lou pls =) Tho we were told that that talk was for our class only, end up i see alot of different faces, probably some freshies as well , somemore i was thinking ''wah our class so da pai, ppl have to come and give speech to us now'' it kinda give us that very nice feeling that we are kinda ELITE or SPECIAL students ... But oh well , people made mistake anyway and i guess i m that type who likes attention if i m standing among the crowd, but if u put me on stage, i would rather join the crowd... So u see GALS are complicated, even me myself dont fully understand myself keke. Talking about those Big 5, Clement was really nice that he gav eme lots of info about the starting pay, the interview process , working environment stuff... I DIDNT KNOW LOR that EY will ask IFRS questions, imagine le i took p2 so long by the time i graduate, u expect me to revise all P2 (WHICH IS SO SO SO THICK) and by thattime also outdated liow, I DON wanna be like wat my lecturer told us about some student was being corrected when he was happily talking about Corporate Governance and end up the interviewer just told him off that NOW is HUMAN GOVERNANCE, kinda abit zhu chou lor .. Well well happy for Clement that he got offer letter from BDO hehe, but DELOITTE kinda pay well liddat le, if 1st class OBU can get RM 3000 or around there , while BDO pay RM 2800 saja, hmm still it keeps me wondering why ppl doesnt want to join Deloitte hehe ..BUT RM3000 IS MY AIM, MUST STRAIGHTS PASS, and this has became my motivation force ahha, it gives me the urge to seek mroe knowledge, tho usually i dont answer quesiton in class VOLUNTARILY, I DID it in p3 coz i guess its either the coffeee is taking its effect on me or i was too motivated liow haha..BY THE WAY,the caffe mocha in SANS FRANS in SUNWAY college yucks, its like 90% coffee, i surmore ask the lady there whther it s is strong, she say its nto strong mana drink saja, bitter one ...spoil my plan to EAT all the whip cream before drinking the coffee lor, but haiz even i mix the cream with the coffee, it still yucks.. probly i m really not a coffee type of person, gives me too much side effedts if its too strong (too strong is by my STANDARD) , i get like headaches, heart beat fast and as i wonder whether it let me be more courageous....

SO yesterday i took Deloitte application form, and when i went home and tried to filled it up, i HAVE PROBLEMS FILLING IT UP..they ask about ur language grades and ur professional qualification and other qualification, i was like wondering i havnt graduat eyet, so what AM I... then they ask for the psition i want to get, iw as think swhat should i fill? Auditor? Trainee? ..then i kidna recall one of my lecturers telling me about how students nowadays couldnt even fill up their applicaiton form, need guidance and help et cetc and i was thinking they so ''cha'' one .. so now see who is the ''cha'' one...

And well today actually I kinda have plans with my fren to go out but she kinda call it off yesterday haiz... she suppsoe to call me yesterday , end up i sms her nor eply, then i call her only tell me she cant go...quite dissapointing lor .. not the 1st time..conclusion: some ppl doesnt change over time huh...bad habits die hard i guess .. IF U ARE READING THIS AND U KNOW THIS IS U, pls feel GUILTY haha.. aiya belanja me lunch trhen i suan liow de haha.. but well it upsets me that it suprise me that i still care so much for her even kena treated liddat again and again ... And yeah VK u say my faceliek dumb dumb, i think i M dumb dumb when come abt all this .

Another dissapointing thing is my TVB DRAMA !!! I THOUGHT THe super women show end already then got the linda chung punya oldern days drama, mana tau belum end..Belum end nvm, that show not coming out so soon... some other drama will be out 1st tho that drama not bad la, got LAM FUNG !! I like his actings, he is very into his role keke and i like his singing esp the ''Love without regret'' , very suitable for his role in the selling moon cake drama (aka Moonlight Resonance) , and that song kinda help me alot during my *hard times* =) You can never imagine me cantonese already out of tune... then crying and singing this song in cantonese... one word..HORRIBLE =)

The link for that song : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5R7HAW2Imas

愛不疚
主唱 ： 林峰

sau chong joi ngaan mau
收藏在眼眸　
seung pooi wooi joh yau
常徘徊左右　
ngoi chaai do moot yau
愛猜到沒有　
yue faai woon siu hau
愉快玩笑後　
nung chuen yin tui hau
能全然退後　
nei hoi sum jau guw
你開心就夠
je jung gum gok taai chan hau
這種感覺太親厚　
gong yut cheen gooy ya but guw
講一千句也不夠　
ga si gong liu nei ting do hau
假使講了你聽到後　
waat wooi jau
或會走　
je jung loon ngoi taai hon yau
這種戀愛太罕有
but sui jan jing yung yau
不須真正擁有　
sing chuen
成全　
chung sum jook fook yin hau
衷心祝福然後　
jau fong sau
就放手


fong sau
放手　
fong hoi soh yau
放開所有　
bei chi gung ji yau
彼此更自由　
fong sau
放手　
kei sut ngoh juet fei ngoi dut but gau
其實我絕非愛得不夠　
fong sau
放手　
kwoot chut soh yau
豁出所有　
waan yau je goh hho yau
還有這個好友　
yee ging
已經　
yee ging juk gau
已經足夠


yiu yuen si yue jau
遙遠是宇宙　
jing jing joi booi hau
靜靜在背後　
hui hon sau jau gau
去看守就夠　


je jung gam gok taai chan hau
這種感覺太親厚　
gong yat cheen gui ya but gau
講一千句也不夠　
jik si yut saat yau gwoh chung dung
即使一剎有過衝動　
waan nei sau
挽你手　
je jung loon ngio taai hon yau
這種戀愛太罕有　
but sui jan jing yung yau
不須真正擁有　
sing chuen
成全　
doh se but dat ying yeen
多捨不得仍然　
see fong sau
是放手


fong sau
放手　
fong hoi soh yau
放開所有　
bei chi gung ji yau
彼此更自由　
fong sau
放手　
kei sut ngoh juet fei ngoi dut but gau
其實我絕非愛得不夠　
fong sau
放手　
kwoot chut soh yau
豁出所有　
waan yau je goh hho yau
還有這個好友　
yee ging
已經　
yee ging juk gau
已經足夠


fong sau
放手　
ngoh dikhin gwa
我的牽掛　
jaau but do jun tau
找不到盡頭　
fong sau
放手　
kei mong nei hung fook sam moh do yau
期望你幸福甚麼都有
ya hui
也許　
ngoi hun sum hau
愛很深厚　
yin yee ngoh jo hon dut tau
然而我早看得透　
fong sau
放手　
ji hoh yung yau
至可擁有

Then , today very epic lor, my papa car broke down nearby sunway college , cha dao lor , i tot can go back liow then he call me and say my put put car break down liow ... part of me upset la coz cant go back early, part of me happy coz i havnt finsih my target today for studying .. so i was thinkign what should i do after finish studying , hwo to use my time, thinking read p3 article but very sien so my other plan was start drawing ... mana tau tat sei han wei go call me , saying somehting that impy i m computer nub... I NUB la so what, eat me ar... jkjk la thanks to him i spend 28 mins on the phone , standing outisde library talkign RO stuff...some ppl must be thinkign this galsot one talk all theRO jargon... but thank you hor my professor not bad le u have admit ma..thanks to cherry sifu hahaha ..his training very SCARY..late 0.5 sec u aso eat 1 asura die liow... and well well i quite happy hahah, today got ppl prais eme say my voice very sweet and nice, then he added sounds liek small kid.... so its like when i m floatign half way , he just drop a rock and smash me down to earth... but haha LUCKY he corrected it say its SWEET AND NICE , well which girl don like to be praise right ahha...as long its not excessive praising which make it too fake liow haha

hmm i wonder how le still got so much p3 articles belum study, hmm I pray God will guide me to allocate time to finish them and i will be MOTIVATED TO STUDY THEM! and this point, i really wish i can hear MS. JOYCE motivation talks =P

And so today Ms WONG was telling about how ppl dont kill u , but assasinate ur personality , i guess when we start working , i guess more or less our personality will be assinated , just hope that we dont change our beliefs and principles in life , we can be wiser but not cunning , we learn to protect ourself but not to harm others.. Ppl tend to spread rumuors around to harm ur reputation, mislead others etc, but in my opinion, these rumours are not as scary as rumuors of your heart. You can always choose to ignore the EXPLICIT rumours , eventually i guess we tend to developed the skill to have invisible ear plugs . Rumours of ur heart is much mroe hard to control and be ignored i guess, it cast doubt on things, it twist ur perception, which can be very dangerous lor ..I dont know how to put it in words la, i just cant define inw ords wat si rumours of ur ehart , i got this idea when ms Wong was talking about ppls preading harmful rumours... SEE LA WHAT I M LEARNING IN P3 CLASS, the one should be absorbed didnt really masuk, other THINGS BESIDES p3 all masuk la... haiz GOD SAVE ME !

So the anime just now i mentioned hor have many many very nice quotes which i like le for example, human heart doesnt come with a manual ; Give me 100 types of person, I give u 100 types of love ; Fight fire with fire, you create a war, with 3rd party in it, you make things more complicated ; many more la... And this 1 chac in this Anime is so full of dignity that he only eats food that HE RECOGNISE THEM AS 1ST CLASS, so someone ask him, what if there is no such food what will u do? He said i will quietly starve to dead . HMM this is what i call EXCESSIVE DIGNITY ... or stubborness , well u will be suprise got such ppl exist in real life =P And one of the character said in the anime which i think is very true lor, he said :'' Experienced and skillfull person can judge someone from their appearance whether they are ur friend or foe, but a truelly skillful and wise person is one which can turn their enemies into their friends.

U see i got so much things to said that before typing all this out , i have to write in point forms what i want to say in case i missed out some and i guess i cant recall certain interesting event during these2 days liow anyway , thats all for today , nights darlings ~

Oh dear ~

Hmm my cake turn to be horrible i guess..i eat and end up goin to get soarthroat... and today i bit blur in class lol apa porter's diamond =P...tho when Ms Wong go through its kinda familiar..and hmm i didnt do well for my MOCKS ...AHH KELLY MUST GAMBATEH !!!!! MUST MAINTAIN MY NO FAIL RECORD..MUST MY BIGGEST WISH UP TILL NOW... u guys must be thinking this gal here is reallylifeless right, haha wateva it does for my future works =) And i kinda find Ms wong very cute hahaah, especially when she V with her V model LOL ... so kawaii des ahhaah .. She has been a lecturer i VERY VERY the respect, cause she teach us about how to be a bettr person ratehr than just academic though sometiems she kinda hmm...how to say ler ... she might give some info that i dont really agree with =) ... well humans are not perfect anyway =)

By the way, today i just learn about HOW TO CURE A BULP!!! All the while i thought u need to swallow saliva to cure a bulb thats what i m told last time... well i guess the right way is to KEEP UR BREATH as long as possible and it should be cured (this is what i learn from ms wong today instead all the important p3 facts.....).. May God be with me and guide me in my studies and let me focus ...

The not so good news today is i found out i have extra p3 revision class when i inda plan all my study plan out already end up have to squeeze in revisions in some revision class days ...I M A PERSON WHO DONT LIKE DEVIATION FROM PLAN.. N now i wonder ever sicne i join college, i have been facing with all these impromptu ''bombs'' ... which keeps me awake in class coz i just go on and on thinking how to reschedule my plans... Well probably have facing pretty much unforseen event , i gues si grew pretty numb about it THO Its NOT WELCOMED AT ALL... i wonder if i m slacking off or i just grew to learn to be relax and enjoy life like a normal college student does .. I hope its growing towards the bright side =)

Oh eyah RO buddies, i can ton RO for sometime , coz i dont KNOW WHY BUT I CANT OPEN RO FILE, i can open it in my bro com but not in my NEWLY REFORMAT COM, still exploring windows 7... i guess it lacks some basic application, guys if u guys knwo whats wrong with my RO or my COM, pls SAVE ME.. I will DEFINITELY MISS U GUYS, miss chasing after LG and dying with them hahha... Miss people calling me auntie and nenek or dear ahhaa...MISS U GUYS bunch of hooligans..I bet if u guys see me in real life, my outlook definitely dont fit my RO attitude haha .. Sorry my dear out there who needs me badly ( i knwo it) but i couldnt on, but i guess u have enough helper to help u out =)

And again , I end up wasting money shoppign anime and movies.... I think i m SIMPLY not suppsoe to exceed my threshold ...coz whenever i exceed, i end up spending it .... BAD HABIT yeah i know i know... well i will be kidna grounded for like 20+ days to hibernate n study..sometiems i kidna admire my dogs who live such a carefree life but well they are deprived of their freedom tho.... Moral of the story humans always think of how unfortunate they are when they are blessed, in short dont appreciate what they have... I have been trying to be grateful of what i have for these few years , really tryign super hard, but at time i guess i went overboard and become blind to some problems, ba dowana talk about old stuff haha... But GENERALLY its good to b e grateful =).. and this is what i think about life, its not hard to know what you need to do, its just hard to set a line (to know when u are overboard and to know when u are lacking ).. because most of the time u know what is the right thing to do, but u just procastinate and CONFUSE urself because its not the thing u WANT TO DO.

And this is one of my favourite korean song, i find that male singer is good looking and have good voice kakaka =)

This is the link : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o_JJr_bO29Y&feature=related

WHAT I SHOULD I DO
BY PARK DA YE

han go ru man kum gu del bo ne myon
nun mu ri na han go ru man kum
gu de ga ga myon to nun mu ri hu lo wa
so nulpo do do son ne mi ro do
da hul su om nun go su ro
gu de ga nun de jap ji no ta go
na nul go ma nit jo

CHORUS.
o to ka jo
o to ka jo
gu de ga to na ga ne yo
o to ka jo
o to ka jo
nal du go to na ga ne yo
sa rang he yo
sa rang he yo
mok no ha bu lo bo ja man
gu den dut ji mo te yo
ga su mu ro man
we chi go i su ni

ha ru on jong il
ji wo bo ji man to to o la
ha ru on jong il
i byol ha ji man to da shi to o la
so nul po do do son ne mi ro do
ha nul su om nun go su ro
gu da ga ji man jap ji mo ta go
na nul go ma nit jo

CHORUS.
o to ka jo
o to ka jo
ja ku gu de man bo yo yo
o to ka jo
o to ka jo
nan gu de sa rang ha nun de
mi an he yo
mi an he yo
ne ma ri du li shi na yo
da shi do ra wa jo yo
gu de a ni myon na nan dwe ni ka yo

o to ka jo
o to ka jo
na ni ji ku de pu nin de
o to ka jo
o to ka jo
gu de ga to na ga ne yo
o to ka jo
o to ka jo
nal du go to na ga ne yo
sa rang he yo
sa rang he yo
mok no ha bu lo bo ja man
gu den dut ji mo te yo
ga su mu ro man
we chi go i su ni..

ENGLISH TRANSLATION

when i let you go one step further,
my eyes overflowed with tears
when you walk one step further,
more tears are falling
as move away to a place
where i can't reach you,
even if i reach out my hand
i can't reach you,i can only cry

CHORUS:

what i should i do?
what should i do ?
you're leaving
what i should i do?
what should i do ?
you are leaving me
i love you,
i love you
i cry out to you
but you can't hear me because
i am only shouting in my heart

all day long i try to forget you,
but i think of you again
all day long i try to say goodbye,
but i think of you again
when you went to a place
where i can't hold you,
even if my han reaches out to you
i can't see you, i can only cry


what i should i do?
what should i do ?
you're leaving
what i should i do?
what should i do ?
I LOVE YOU ONLY
i love you,
i love you
i cry out to you
but you can't hear me because
i am only shouting in my heart

what i should i do?
what should i do ?
i only have you
what i should i do?
what should i do ?
you're leaving
what i should i do?
what should i do ?
you're leaving
i love you,
i love you
i cry out to you
but you can't hear me because
i am only shouting in my heart

By the way , this song was sang in this korean drama call You're Beautiful , its one of my favourite and its very funny and very nice cover on the songs =)

Awesome Day, Awful Night

So today i woke up late a little ...its kinda scary esp after u just dreamt that u will be late and i end up waking late... some dejavu ... Well today studying have been mroe efficent , thank God coz this is gona be warm up for my coming studying session ... and talking about studies, tomorrow will be Ms Wong's EDC classes, N to be honest i didnt touch my p3 much besides reading some 1st few pages abt sllybus and few thigns about the exams... Thats so great and I REALLY PRAY she dont ask any questions coz i will be like O.O and yeah its very pai seh though i know i tai sei aso la...

Now somethign about the weather, it has veen REALLY REALLY HOT, EXTREME HOT this few days and the air so warm and humid... REALLY AFFECTS MY STUDYING MOOD, for one thign its good weather for little vampries (mosquitoes) to come over my room and start feeding on me... i already have MANY MANY MANY Scares from them considering how sensitive my skin is ... and as i m worrying about mosquitoes, here comes the ants, I DONT KNOW WHY but they come to my table WHICH I DONT HAVE ANY EDIBLE (at least edible to human ) so i started killing htem one by one while studying...its very distracting while here i am trying to focus and there they are exploring my table searching for soem trreasure unknown to me... so these few days, due to the mosquitoes and ants, i amd closed to being poisoned to death, the sheltox killed them and nearly took me as well... get all the itchiness, eye pain , make ur tongue dry as well.. exactly liek what they say if u get urself poisoned with hose sheltox stuff... and yeah, at least today it rain, i feel like singing the christian song which goes Open the Flood gate of heavan, let it rain ~ let it rain ~ , a nice song during hot weather serious and I m thinking mayb someoen was singing that song thats why there is long pour of rain which is VERY VERY MUCH APPRECIATED HERE, not sure about KL ppl where they easily get floods ~

and guess what, today I BAKED !! I BAKED CHOCOLATE BUTTER CAKE !! and thats for my 3 days breakfast , people who sits near me u are eithe rlucky or unlucky coz i think i end up offing the oven 10 minutes late, and so its erm...abit black , according to my mum its abit dry but its nice..i dont know how that clicks... so this is the convo btw me and my mum:

Me: Hows the cake ? (after I saw 1 cup cake eaten)
MUM: its very dry..
Me: Really ar? Very Dry ar?
MUM: no la..abit dry...
Me: its abit dry or very dry le....
MUM: It taste good...
Me: so its dry or very dry? (i m very persistent at times =) tho its not needed in this situation)
MUM: its abit dry but taste nice..
Me: Just now u say VERY dry, then let me ask few tiems becoem abit dry then later become taste good...you try to make me feel better ar...
MUM: no la its true la
Me:>.> (and i walk off)

so tomorrow who is next to me, good luck, u will know u are blessed or cursed tommorow =)

So now the night time, my parents are away so they asked me to get mny brother to fetch me so i did... i calle dhim and he told me to take a taxi at 6.30am..when he usually leave a little later than this ..so he told me u want me to lsend u and then jammed all the way to my work place? and i m like so what time do u leave then..he was like take a taxi la..i m like u think i very rich ar..then he say then? come back only say... So later mydad talked to him, n i guess he was forced to send and fetch me .... so after few hours later, he came back and he came marching to my mums room and i suspected he probably giving my mum a fit then he changed target and came to me, and say WHAT A WONDERFUL FAMILY I HAVE? I have to work sat n sun from 10 to 10 and now have to fetch me this little fellar .. and showed me all his temper and wtv and left... 1st , i m thankful he at least fetch me tho i m pretty much sure 2molo i m gona get all his complaints n screamign probly (nvm used to it, auto sound barrier will be on ) , 2nd, i think he should really start to be more mature ( bro if u read this and u bo song, dont give me a fit becoz as i said this is MY BLOG, don like it DON READ IT, you can create another blog to curse me upside down and i don care ), its tiring I know but life is like that u dont expect evrythign ur way especially when u are older, u have responsibility to this family ..and when u think u are suffering, think about mum who works even harder than u are .. and in the future U will see me work harder than that ...not a choice isnt it being an auditor in the future (Just 3 years , I WILL DO IT AND I WILL MAKE IT THRU !!!)

and yeah i forgot sunday i met Grace Lim , my childhood best friend, so long din see her liow ahha but i bang into her in church , glad to see she is doing well =) and i really pray the friday outing will be on lol ..and she asked me in 1 of the 1st few question, ''how u are doing with jm?''
I m like '' no more already . long time aso no mroe already '' then she was liek why why ? so i told the reason .. so I realise one thing, if she asked me this question when i just break up, i guess i would have been cursing her (applies to evryone else) iin my heart 100 times but now its over and i coudl easily say out tho dont sound good each time u have to say liek i got dumped >.> bah wtv , but well at least she care .

And one more thing i realise, when gals got dumped, they all are dangerous ful of fury and hatred and yeah this appleis to me as well , at least it affected me 1 day lol ..one solution to gals out there if u encounter this problem, write in ur diary ,..curse them or wtv in the diary u feel better and pray for peace and forgiveness .. we are sad enough to get dumped, but dont make urself more pathetic by going into anger and hatred and fury ... no matter how angry u get, u are hurting urself mroe and the other party will just pity u ..and i m pretty sure U dont want to be pitied BY ANYONE ESP THEM =) Be strong and courageous , worthy and true =)

I particular like this chapter in the bible out of my limited bible knowledge =)

Psalm 23
The Lord is my sheperd;
I have everything I need,
He lets me rest in green meadow;
He leads me beside peaceful streams.
He renews my strength,
He guides me along right paths,
bringing honour to his name.
Even when I walk through the valley of death,
I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me.
Your rod andyour staff protect and comfort me in the presence of my enemies.
You welcome me as a guest, annoiting my head with oil.
My cup overflows with blessings.
Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life, and I will live in the house og the Lord forever.

Talkign about this verse,my choir master told us that this is the verse that people use when giving the final rites of prayers to those who are dead or going to die , so there was this time his wife was somehow kena coma liddat, cant move and they didnt know that she being coma, could hear what they are talking, so when someone say this verses, the wife was like '' i m not dead.... die la no hope already..i m going to die'' ..i find it quite funny how a person in coma react after hearing all the conversation and prayers ..its like u want to tell them right on their face that i m not DEAD YET and FIGHTING HARD to wake up, and there u are saying the last prayers... its like u so semangat then kena pour cold water..lol..

And heres one link that i like the music and the MV, assasin creed fans might like this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yI9KKAXQ_0U
The 1st half of the music is a song call 'Here Comes The King'
The 2nd half is 'Detroned'
Both from X-Ray Dog

and 2molo i really pray i can get the reformat disc before my bro comes and get me and hopefully i buy the right one since i m like a total computer noob =P

Cranky little lady...

Hmm alright now that i have cool down , i feel its not that biggie to reformat my com now ..mayb perhaps few days no RO, byt he way my window media player and other player is R.I.P liow ....
So sorry to my RO Darligns for being some cranky little lady haha..pai seh oh ... And by the way today i just verified my theory that 99% of ppl who play have some love problems (not pinpointing anyone coz there are many ) but its good that i found someone who have same view me when it comes to love , yeah the last time i love someone is like 10 months ago aroundthere la haha , dont get me wrong i still love my RO DARLINGS and HAREMS hahha .. As I said, in a virtual world u sometimes tend to project the very opposite of yourself ..regarding this yeah probably .. But yeah I support you LIZARD, do your best , at least u try even thought u ended up broken into pieces, it doesnt matter the results just tells you very clearly where you need to head next =) In this world, nothing is really cant let go , when it hurts you tend to let go just that whetehr it breaks through your limit of tolerance thats all =)

Song: Don’t Say “Lazy”
Artist: Toyosaki Aki, Hikasa Yoko, Satou Satomi, Kotobuki Minako
Album: Don’t Say “Lazy”
Other: Ending song for the anime K-ON!

Please don’t’ say “You are lazy”datte honto ha crazyhakuchou tachi ha soumienai toko de BATAashi surundesuhonnou ni juujun chuujitsu honrou mo juujuu shouchizento youyoudashi…dakara tama ni kyuukei shichaundesu
Please don’t’ say “You are lazy”because I’m actually crazy!The swans, that’s rightwhat you can’t see is that they thrash about when swimming!I’m obedient and loyal to my instincts, I’ll even accept being made fun of!A bright future is offered to me…that’s why I take a break once in a while.
kono me de shikkari misadameteyukisaki chizujou MA-KU shitechikamichi areba sore ga oudouhashoreru tsubasa mo areba joutou
With these eyes I’ll confirmmy destination and Mark it on my map!If there’s a shortcut, that would be easier,if there’s are wings to make it even shorter, it would be great!
YABA tsume wareta GURU- de hoshuu shitasore dakede nanka tasseikandaijina no ha jibun kawaigaru kotojibun wo aisanakya hito mo aisenai
Damn! I broke a nail, so I fixed it with glue.With that I somehow I got a feeling of achievement.The important thing is to love oneself,if you don’t love yourself, you won’t love other people.
Please don’t say “You are lazy”datte honto ha crazynou aru taka ha soumienai toko ni PIKKU kakusundesusouzou ni isshoukenmei genjitsu ha zettai zetsumeihatten tochuu dashi…dakara fui ni PICCHI hazurerundesu
Please don’t say “You are lazy”because I’m actually crazy!Skilled hawks, that’s right,they hide their talons!I try hard to imagine it, but reality drives me up into a corner…I’m midway to development…that’s why I suddenly go out of pitch.
sono me ni utsuranai dake datteyaruki ha ME-TA- furikitteitsudemo zenryoku de yumemitesono bun zenryoku de nemutte
It won’t be projected in my eyes becausemy Motivation breaks the Meter…I always dream with all my power,but in return, I sleep with all my power.
YARI choi yaseta choushidzuite kuuttasore dakede nande? haibokukansukasazu ni mokuhyou kahou shuusei shitejuunan ni rinkiouhen shichi henge ga kachi
I lost a bit of weight…in my excitement, I ate…Why did that happen? I feel defeated…Without any delay, I lower my own objectives.I’m flexible enough to adapt…my Kabuki dance will win!
Please don’t say “You are lazy”datte honto ha crazykujaku tachi ha soukokozo to iu toki bi wo miserundesugouzouroppu manshin maishin ganbou ha soushin reijinyuuwaku tahatsu dashi…dakara yake ni ishi kudakechaundesu
Please don’t say “You are lazy”because I’m actually crazy!The peacocks, that’s right,they say “This is it!” when they are enchanted by beauty!I struggle and push for my whole body to lose weight…to be a beauty,though, there are lots of temptations…that’s why I desperately break my will.
YABA masaka Red Point!? iya GIRI KURIA!sore dakede nante zennoukandaijina no ha jibun mitometeku kotojibun wo yurusanakya hito mo yurusenai
Damn! Don’t tell me…a Red Point!? No, barely cleared it!With that I feel omnipotent!The important thing is to accept oneself,if you don’t forgive yourself, you won’t be able to forgive other people!
Please dont’ say “You are lazy”datte honto ha crazyhakuchou tachi ha soumienai toko de BATAashi surundesuhonnou ni juujun chuujitsu honrou mo juujuu shouchizento youyoudashi…dakara tama ni kyuukei shichaundesu
Please don’t’ say “You are lazy”because I’m actually crazy!The swans, that’s rightwhat you can’t see is that they thrash about when swimming!I’m obedient and loyal to my instincts, I’ll even accept being made fun of!A bright future is offered to me…that’s why I take a break once in a while.

Next next I have always wanting to intro this song since i Like it, people who dont like noisy and loud music probably wont like it, but it kinda keep me jumping and hoping my room (shh.. my family is not suppose to know abt it ...they dont knwo i have such lunatic side kakaka) , and yeah its called Dont say LAZY by K-On (i like the male version , the female version isnt that bad either) so here is the link of it : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I813drN6nI0
The Lyrics is on top ( sorry abt that my com sot liwo thats why i cant copy it here and it went up ..pai seh hehe)

Next song I like alot is from FF10 - name Hymph of fayth aka Song Of Prayers . Heres the link :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E9vWvXoZhgI&feature=related

The lyrics for the this song :
Ieyui
Nobomeno
Renmiri
Yojuyogo
Hasatekanae
Kutamae

Translation:
Pray, Yevon-ju
Dream,Child of prayer
Forever and ever
Bring us glory

If you dont know anything abt ff10, you wont get the lyrics (even i forgotten apa yevon-ju) but most importantly its nice .. I used to sing this song (wihtout knowing the lyrics just agak agak follow what i hear) to my dog Laura when she was young until she sleeps ..nice O memory.. Now she is getting cranky as she aged , very temperamental , sometimes see me she go wiggly wiggly.. most of the times ignroe me and continue her nap or sun taning, rarely but yes she does BITE me.(not only me, my mum and grandma, my brother as well) ..like i said cranky old lady .. mayb she's just lonely but well i got her Angel (my golden retriever) to be her companion though theres a big age gap b\..well she needs some young life to keep her of her moodiness and well I guess it helps .. At least they do play together tho the old one tend to bite and growl alot during their play time ..YES IT NOT A FIGHT, its PLAY for them ..1 enjoy biting, 1 enjoy being bitten and i dont see the logic either.. Mayb showing love thru bitings works for dogs? Like chinese say whack is love, scold is sayang u...

What A Day..

First, I exceeded my target time for studying...means no efficent enough...
Nevermine, and NOW MY COM..... after the recent AVG Check i did yesterday, now it got attacked by virus ..HOW WONDERFUL ISNT IT??? Seriously bad mood... so now i have to figure out how to bring my com to pyramid to repair......

HOWEVER THANK GOD for my Internet explorer which is still working, RO still working , Chinese Star is alive tho my MSN is DEAD, MOZILLA DEAD, tudou DEAD, AVG DEAD and i guess pretty much all others are dead =) SO BRAVO BRAVO ...

Thats it for today, or else i will go on and on and go frenzy and today is definitely not the DAY TO MESSED WITH ME.. Good job little com, after eating all 30+ cookies i assume and i have to to del them out for u and this is how u get yourself SICK again... Whatever it is, I thank God for what is working and lets just pray my com is doin fine and I HOPE reformat doesnt cost me a bomb ..

WHOEVER WHO INVENTED VIRUS, COOKIE WTV THAT IS HARMFUL IS THE WORLD SADDEST PERSON. GET A LIFE PLS .Thanks and PLS APPRECIATE YOUR LIFE AND DO SOMETHING WORTHY TO THE SOCIETY AND DONT WASTE IT =)

And the Story Begins...

ok i spend the last 20 mins typing this post and my mozila just freeze up and now i have to retype ... Not a very nice encouragement to write a blog there.... Or issit God telling me something =P...

today being a sunday is CHURCH and CHOIR day =) so well talking about the sermon today, its rather sad to hear that Christian Missionary School are ceasing to be existent in substance ( they are there physically (the buildings) but the enthusiasm to reach out and teach by christian teacher is rather weak .. And here the speaker tell us something about how his student . being a very nice,cheerful,active boy (being president of the sport club or sumthign liddat, football club, and 1 mroe sports which i cant recall) hung himself after phoning the speaker(his teacher) a few days before he decided to end his life. According to the speaker, the boy sounds fine when he spoke on the phone. So moral of the story, you never know what someone is thinking even they are so happy,outgoing person on the surface. It seems that he is caught up with some relationship problems and some personal problems but no one expected him to end his life liddat.. And this prompt me to think about how people are trying so hard to cover up their unhapniess and some evil fellar came in and rub salt to the wound.. well i m not gona go further about this issue,just REMEMBER YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT SOMEONE IS THINKING SO BECAREFUL WITH YOUR WORDS, control your curiosity =)

So now about the choir group, honestly I didnt really feel comfortable in the beginning when i !st joined the choir group. WHY huh... 99% being 40 and above(ranging till 60+ or more) and you are like one of the FEW (less than 5) which are in their 20s and this I have included those in their late 20s. So when all the auntie auntie talk , you feel left out and thats normal. But as time goes by, I realise these more elderly people are seriously mentally very young..You see them joke as if they are in their teens and it somehow make me feel they are very cute people. Well not all of them appear to eb friendly but somehow you know they are good guys =) I even have an auntie (her name is Alice) who offer to teach me to play guitar and she is real good singer and a VERY VERY FUN lady..I sometimes feel that she is younger than me despite the age gap . Being with her makes me happy despite how sien i can be with life lol... And with have this really ncie CHoir master , for me he is like a MUSIC PRO sicne i know almost nothign about music besides open your mouth and SING..yeah..i m kidna bad with music instruments, so i geuss the every best i could do is SING.. since my fingers kinda fail me ...

But well today its not a very nice day for me, i have been kinda lectured by my dad pretty much ...well he is being cranky and well partly its my fault which i would very much wouldnt want to admit (bah human nature)... so i kinda attracted an army of ants to attack my room due to Smarties that was given by Eileen (she is being niced just that i m that lazy one ..pai seh Eileen the msarties became the ant's concentration potion =( ) Talking about smarties, it kidna reminds me of how last time i was alergic to colours that when eating M&M and smarties , i could only eat certain colours .. So i m the weirdo kid there picking certian colours to be eaten... so well back to the ants, I decided to kill the whoel army by spraying RIDsect for mosquito , i dont know how but the ants died but thats without the course of poisoning myself... Some people might think i m trying to commit suicde with the ants cause i think I kinda overspray them (being an extremist ) .


Next about my cookadiels, Snow (the silver one) started to imitate people's whistling... its liek provoking you.... but well its good progress that at least those birds are not there just to eat ,sleep,poo... They are cute having like little blushers on them... and i manage to see how a wild shama (i suppose its spelled liddat wateva la) (its a bird by the way) shower.. imagine they have a cage for a bird just to let it shower in it.... By the way , that bird's name is Danny Boy named by nature-crazed papa....

Next about RO, yes my dears, i kidna get alot of nick from my supposingly frens.... like auntie, nenek ri, datuk ri, dear , darling ,lenglui ...tho i dont mind the last one haha(girls being girls always liek to be flattered, just face it im NORMAL).. But i wonder why no people call me jiejie... nowadays young people really tak tau respect older people haiz.... and well my dear alice kinda screw up the guild storage yeah and we kinda face some custom crisis >.> Poor girl haha.. Seriously by playing RO, it broaden my view, let me keep in touch with the younger generations and kinda really LET ME SEE WHATS HAPPENING IN THIS WORLD, you get all kinds of people, backstabber, some mean looking but kind ppl, and i realsie alot ppl face love problems (applies to those playing RO with me ) Dont worry i will nto discuss ur issues here .. and is eriously wodner what so good abotu this game that makes me keep quiting and coming back...its like i m CURSED with it.... i played my 1st ro (ERO) also my very 1st online game when i m like 12 or 13... and now i m going to be 20.... Its either me not growing or just like i said, a curse.... Believe it or not, i quited ro more than 5 times and always came back.... talking about RO, i might start writing a new ro story in blog , so ro buddies if interested pls drop by hahaha... i m pretty sure some of u will feel the nostalgia =P

by the way, ims till figuring it out how to deco my blog and how to have music playing there >.> If any of you know how, pls help this helpless girl here . Domo arigato desu =)

A Fresh New Start

PLS TAKE NOTE: I DO HAVE TYPO HABITS, just bear with it =) DOnt like myblog, Dont Read it =)

This is not my 1st time writing a blog by the way =) As my title say, its a fresh new start for me again and hopefully I dont abandon this blog halfway =P So, lets start with some basic intro, I am currently an ACCA student in my final year (hopefully and I believe THIS WILL BE MY FINAL YEAR) , i like online gaming etc etc (to what extent ? Nice question there but for those who knew what i have been doing all this while just HUSH =) ) , my house is a literally a MINI ZOO, i Have birds,fishes,dogs and i used to rear rabbits and tortoise but oh well rabbits are just like a highly efficient and effective ''reproducing'' machine..yes yes some of it will die but imagine evry month 4-5 baby rabbits staring at you..no way.. there is A LIMIT to my MOTHERLY or SISTERLY love . Oh well, I m not exactly someone who is a GOOD SISTER or perhaps a GOOD COUSIN SISTER, i m a little (just a little ) violent or some call it ''dont mess with me '' type of cousin or sister.. Next, as you all know i have just a 'little' typo problem, i have more compassion towards dogs than humans, dont ask me why probably humans dont give me that ''Please Help Me'' eye thats dogs are really good in it. Mayb thats God's gift to them, who knows =P